Monday, April 19, 2004, 10:40 PM

Single,available,cranky,crazy.

haven't been writing in here for a long time because i always feel like people are watching.like they will know my deep down secrets.like certain things had to be left unsaid.anyway,now that i am single.i can finally voice out ALL thoughts just and whenever i like.i dont have to be bothered bout how HIS friends think of me.or for now.BITCH how bad i am.i AM bad.too bad.i will get retribution. so what?i don't give a damn.all i know is that i dont feel sad that i broke up.Actually,feel bad towards marc.disappoined in myself.disappointed my parents.but i feel its my life.and i know i made the right move.i can BREATHE.i can shout it all out!he's probably the gonna be the only guy in the world who will ever love me so much.but then again,he's not exactly the best guy to be with.....NICE for a friend.my parents keep pushing him to me.like they use to think he wasnt gd...for hekept swearing at me,complain no $$ and all.now they like on his side...thry never consdier how i feel....its MY heart.i just wish someone would just share all this woes with me.cgo through all this shit with me.stand by me.lead me.give me tissue.lend me ears.lend me eyes.lend me heart.clearly,my good friends are attached and all.very happy together.so i hope to find tt special friend....